a little bitching to relieve the soul

It is strange. I have told several friends that I am pregnant way before I was going to tell anyone because I wanted to share and I also wanted some support. When they told me they were pregnant the 2nd time around I was very excited and tried to emotionally support them as much as possible. And I have received none. No one seems to particularly care when you get pregnant the 2nd time – as if to say .. Well the 1st time is super exciting as it is new experience and something to prove in a way – that you can actually conceive and carry a child to term. But the 2nd time all bets are off. I have found myself lonelier this time around and that definitely is depressing. I do have one friend that is always supportive and whenever I speak to her she makes me feel great – compliments me and blusters me up when I am down and she doesn’t even have children. Also I have found that I have to chase some of my friends more then I care too. Now I know I don’t have an office anymore and I lack privacy at work – but they could call me at lunch time and check in occasionally. Again this makes me feel bad. And I know I am hyper-emotional but still – the loneliness is pervasive and especially since Sean is out of the country I would think there would have been more emotional support for a friend.