The Sequel

9 weeks 4 days
I had the sequel checked out this morning … Strong loud heartbeat and the arms and legs were flapping around and swimming up a storm. This one is already moving more inside me then Ronin ever did in the beginning. It made it so much more real. Not that I haven't ABORBED that I am preggsters - but maybe in a weird way I haven't - well maybe a little... Whenever I had a major sono w/ Ronin - he never moved. I called him chill and Sean called him lazy ... My next appointment is in 3 weeks for Alpha-Fetal Proteins to detect downs’ syndrome, spina-bifida and all other uggely problems. So far so good. No weight gain – although my tummy is sticking out right above my belly button and my blood pressure was great – 108/70. This is a strong little bugger and the sequl is already rocking my world and here to stay. I am due 11/28/07 and the doctors plans on me being HOME by American Turkey Day – 11/24/07. Can someone say another little tax write-off!

Still haven't told Tom and wifely. Haven't told Grandma either ...

Accomplishment

My little man ate carrots yesterday. Little baby carrots that I had steamed up for him – that he could hold in his little fat star-fish hands … I placed one in front of him to see how he would react. Once he realized what it was he looked around for more. I also gave him some left over sloppy-Joe ground turkey. I felt tremulously accomplished as my little man ate all real people / adult food and liked it. I felt good that he didn’t entirely reject what I placed before him. I felt like a provider – extraordinaire. Is it wrong that my sense of accomplishment is wrapped up in a 16 month old? Right now I am okay with that.

the mommy debate

How many stay-at-home mom's wish they had a full time job vs. how many full time working mom's wish they could stay-at-home.

I think this is a really interesting point to consider in the on-going discussion re: who deals with what? AS I have said many-a-time I think we all have it hard and in different ways ...

I just thought it was interesting to mention.

Craving for OJ turns terribly wrong!

I had a CRAZY craving for OJ today. So I bought one and drank it and it was awesome. Then 2 hours later I ran to the bathroom to throw it up! That was far from awesome and actually quite acidic and gross and painful. Now I am off OJ. Which is sad as I used to love OJ and the last time I drank it was in May 2006 when I was pregnant with Ronin. And then I threw it up and vowed no more OJ until after Ronin was born. And then I got off juice completely and only began to crave it until now – or should I say until 11am.

So daycare expenses will kill me. I am spending $700 a month for a nanny at my mom’s house who also cleans when she has the time - which was a lot before Ronin learned top walk at 8 months. Now Ronin needs more … he needs more activities and socialization. So mom looked into a few classes and says they will cost $300 a month extra. Which means $1000 a month? I could put him in full time daycare for $1000 a month in Brewster. For 8am – 6pm care. But I didn’t want to do that yet as I wasn’t sure he or I could handle that. Then I wouldn’t hear about all the cute things he does and the new words and the new experiences … because strangers would be caring for him not family.

But with another on the way I need to reconsider this scenario and since I got knocked up so fast I will / should put him in something full time by Jan as I would have to go back to work after the sequel goes to my mom by February.

And Sean’s J-O-B is not set yet for September and that is stressful! So I really do not know what I can afford on top of the mortgage but alas I have no choice!

Crazy Bloated

My ankles are swelling by the second. I was BAD today with the water intake and now I am feeling it. I also spent lunch in my car sleeping. The exhaustion of the 1st tri-mester is UNREAL. Then I ate a lot of cheese and felt better. Tonight I think I will order the home baby mentor kit and find out the gender. Everyone is rooting for a girl and I really want this little bugger to be healthy and strong. Sean and I got that w/Ronin and I want a repeat performance.

Ronin did "well" in class today. He hugged a little girl who had a ton of curls and then stole her play vacuum. I am not sure of the gesture was hugging or stealing related. He also has no table skills or whatever that means? He is only 15 months for G-dsakes. So he doesn't want to sit at a table and draw - he would rather draw on other kids or on the floor. Good for him for not assimulating totally. I want a LEADER not a FOLLOWER. The world needs a Ronin thankuverymuch!

Today is Day 1

I used to keep an online diary but I have grown away from that. Everyone is blogging and I figured this was a good way to keep everyone informed of the Gillhoolley's. I wanted to create a special website for my son, Ronin, but I no longer recall how to HTML and no one has the time to create a full site. So here I begin - Day 1. A blog for the Gillhoolley's.

I am EXHAUSTED. I did sleep well and went to bed last night at 9pm. Ronin slept through the night again and that makes it - 5 out of 7 days - so maybe I won't have to deny him his 4am bottle and he will simply grow out of it. That would rock. I am having several pains and pulls from the sequel and WISH I could tell more people about it - but alas I need to wait.